On the first day of 2009

I cried

As soon as my dearest frd gave me a hug

it just feel like I was released from the armament

I collapsed

When the thing finally came out like this,

I realized that it was all my fault.

I should not be so emotional

should not share my depression to others

I should not be so insecure

should not always seek for security

I am just a childish, negative, self-centred girl.

I only care my happiness, my sadness

and all the things which has impact on me

I don't care others.

It is for sure that I deserved to be alone

but not in a relationship

Things happened, & it's happened

Unlike video tape, we cannot rewind

and retake the action.

I can't pretend not to know the facts

I can't pretend all things back to normal

It hurts, but I have learnt a lesson.

I know more about myself.

Abby is no longer the optimistic Abby.

no longer the enthusiastic Abby.

Anyway, Thank you for giving me so much

Please don't be so narrow-minded

just forgive what I did to you.

I know it's hurt but life should continues

By the way,

Thank you all my friends.

Thank you for all your support,

even though you knew that was my fault.

I love you all.